Like any young man of my age, until a few months ago I never thought about death. At least, not mine. My name is Bogdan Curelea, I’m only 28 years old and I just feel like I have so much to do on this earth. I love life, I love people, I love my family and friends. I feel lost among the fatal diagnosis and I’m afraid of the predictive day, that day on which I will be on the operating table, not having the certainty that I will ever wake up. That I will ever watch the sunrise and the sunset, that I will be embraced by my parents, that I could feel the kiss of my mother or I will ever look at the eyes of the women that I love. And all this because a diagnosis: Cavernous hemangioma fronto parietal, which many of you could not understand, but for me represents ”the sword above the head”. And, like in a saying, God never close one door without opening a window. My window is the fact that I can do this operation, but high costs raise me other obstacles.

For this I need help, help from my peers.

I need about 60.000 euros to live, to fulfill my dreams.

I think sometimes how could be better: to die suddenly, without knowing anything, or to be sentenced to death, to know what it’s going to happen, to have enough time to say good-bye to your loved ones …

I need your help to live. I call people’s souls. Any help, no matter how small, can help me to live. Never in my life I ever thought that I would be put in the situation to ask mercy to those around me. Mercy and money. That’s what I’m doing. But look that the disease defeat everything around: vanity, life … It will beat me. And I want so much to live. Some time ago, I would have liked other things, material things, but right now, all I want is to live.

Life is so beautiful … I hope that I didn’t realize too late. It’s so nice to look at trees whose leaf rust, to look in the eyes of a child, to see how the sun sets and rises, starting a new day for everyone else but not for me. So far I have never thought to start a family. All I had in the head at 28 years, was how to advance in the career and many other small things childish and transient, but now, being in that situation, I think that would be so nice to have a child, only mine, but probably I’m not gonna be able to do that, unfortunately …

I want to live! Please help me!

I was diagnosed: Cavernous hemangioma fronto parietal on the left side of the brain, following the appearance of a semi-paresis on the right side of my body. The cavernous is a rare vascular malformation, the most common clinical manifestation is bleeding, seizures, headache, etc.. Until now, the people suffering from this disease didn’t have very high chances of survival, because the malformation called cavernous, develops around nerve center of the brain, and the surgery is very difficult.

It all started one night when I woke up and I realized that I can’t move the fingers from the right leg and shortly after I could not move the leg.

After weeks of walking through the hospital and received all kinds of diagnoses, like herniated disc and more, I arrived at the hospital of Neurology and after I performed a CT scan and an MRI it came the correct diagnosis. A cavernous which they did not know to tell me if aroused after an injury or I have it from birth. I was told that semi-paresis is triggered because the cavernous appeared on the brain. I returned from semi-paresis, and my life partially re-entered in normality.

Some doctors told me not to hurry if it doesn’t bother me anymore, because some patients can live with such formations for life without major problems. I began to feel better and be increasingly optimistic. Maybe I was one of the “lucky” persons that could live without problems with a brain cavernous. And it seems that I’m not one of the lucky! After a month and half nightmare began again. Making the cavernous to bleed making me to lose my knowledge, control limb on the right side and led to the outbreak of Jacksonian seizures (spasms of the muscles of the hand and right leg). They said I’m lucky, because the bleeding was minimal.

Since then I’m in the hospital where doctors told me that surgery is now a priority. It is a priority because this cavernous may bleed again and the risks …

I knew nothing about the diagnosis made by physicians: Fronto parietal left intracranial expansive process, with cavernous probability, unverified surgery, neuro-psychomotor regression. In non-medical terms, a cavernous right in the middle of the brain.

When a neuro-surgeon told me that a surgery is necessary I accepted immediately. But the doctor neuro-surgeon, famous nationwide, failed to tell me what are the chances of success of this intervention. In a situation beneficial to me, because it sounds strange to call it happy, in the situation that I am, another doctor, by the same specialty as the one that recommend the intervention on brain, told me that making such an operations in Romania is a risk of over 70%.

What the risk means? Die or remain paralyzed on the right side!

“By you, that cavernous is depth and if it was at the surface I could intervene without creating big problems during the surgery but in your case, the surgery could be done successfully only to a clinic abroad that has equipment for monitoring nerve during the surgery”; these are the words of the doctor who, I can say that at that time, saved my life.

I began to think and ask other experts and their conclusions were the same: that the intervention can not be performed in Romania because the risks are extremely high. Neurosurgeons Doctors in Romania that I contacted recommended me the surgery abroad because of the high degree of risk to remain with serious consequences, and because the necessary equipment monitoring cranial nerves during surgery is missing in Romania.

With Mr. Dan Santimbreanu ( http://dansantimbreanu.wordpress.com/ ) which had a similar problem and that with the help of people with soul, passed safely over that issue, I found the INI clinic in Hannover, which has the equipment necessary to take some investigation and the surgery with chances of success over 90%.

For those who think they can help with donations no matter how small, can give information on to friends and companies who can help me I posted below 5 accounts BCR and Libra Bank.

Account holder: Curelea Bogdan Alin

Companies can deduct a sum of money from the corporation tax payable by the sponsorship. Total cumulative amount donated must meet two conditions. Do not exceed:

- 3% of turnover

- 20% of income tax due

I attached in review: diagnosis, ID card and treatment offer. The documents can be made available in Medical Documents page. I will keep in touch with my situation on the blog.

You can contact me at  curelea_bogdan@yahoo.com  or phone +40761.631.897.

Thank you,

Bogdan